Randomness...

I was going through my BlackBerry today and was looking at the hundreds of pictures... All so random. I can't bring myself to delete them. Some of them are cute, and some are just hilarious. Some of them are just good times, and some are things that I'm just proud of. Some are even random people...
I decided to share a select few... There were well over a thousand, so when I say few, I'm sorry to say it's a lot more than a few! LOL...
There's a pic of me on a coworkers Porsche, turns out he didn't like that so much... Oops.
There's random pics that I've taken when I didn't feel like smiling just to make myself smile... Don't ask, it just works.
There's pics of the kids in time out... There were just so cute! :)
There was my Macky Mack... I love that puppy...
There was one of my favorite Christmas presents, the UGA hat...
My Chiquita baby...
My tattoo...
A Merry Christmas note I left on the conference room board at work before I went on vacation...
Me wearing my favorite scarf and hat...
Me getting my hair dyed...
Visiting Micheal at his school...
A bottle of Smirnoff...
The diaper the babysitter put on backwards... LOL...
My boots...
The Christmas tree...
Me at work...
The boys getting hair cuts...
The boys at the FRG Christmas party...
Kaylynn stealing an apple from Al at work...
Halloween...
Thanksgiving...
Christmas...
Fuzzy socks...
My best friend in the whole world...
And his truck...
Al, with the hard hat that I bought for him after throwing way too many random objects at his head while at work...
Micheal's school picture...
Like I said, lots of randomness... I love each and every one of them and just wanted to share them... :)

He doesn't know me anymore...

That's what I was told last night folks... And the truth is, I think he's right. But the real truth of the matter is I'm not sure that he ever really knew me at all. I think he had an image of what and who he wanted me to be made up in his head and he decided that's who I was. I know I have changed, but I haven't changed that drastically.

Happy New Year's!!!

Well people, it's that time of year again... The first. Happy new year! I'm glad to have made it another year and I'm glad that you guys did too...
I keep sitting and thinking about my resolutions. I don't really have any this year other than to just find what makes me happy. I know I need to do what's best for me and the kids, so I'm going to work on finding that.
Well, I need to get going, but you will definitely be seeing more of me...

Pray for me...

I'm about to do something today that could affect the rest of my life... I'm not sure right now if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I know things have got to change. The most I can ask for right now is prayer that things go the way that they are supposed to. I am not 100% sure how things are supposed to work out or that I have made the right decision, but I know that life has got to be better than it has been. Life is about more than mind games and who can tick the other off the most. Life is about more than hurting each other.
Please just pray. And then pray some more.

Taking a moment...

So much has changed this year... I can't even begin to explain it all right now. All I can say is that I'm hoping that the new year is much better than this one. I know it will be. It's definitely going to be a ride.
I really hope that you will all join me on my journey and continue to support me as you have in the past.
Well, I'm going to get going, but I promise that I have not forgotten you all and I promise to explain it all at a later date...

Grrrr....

Hello people! I apologize for still not keeping my word and getting on here to update. I will tell you that there are some things going on that I just don't want to talk about, and I think that's part of what keeps me off here.
Right now I'll talk about good things. The trip to Savannah was a much needed break. I almost wish I could go back, but I missed the boys terribly. I made some very good business contacts while I was there as well, which is always a good thing.
Work is going great. My department is growing, which is fantastic, that means I'm doing something right and they have faith in me. I have two assistants and by January I should have three. I have my review coming up on Tuesday and it's so funny, with Walmart I would have been a wreck, here I am EXCITED!!!
The boys are fantastic! I'm going to see if I can upload some pictures that I have on my Blackberry tonight... We have some really cute goofy pictures from going out. They are getting so big too... I have this picture of Micheal next to my bed from where he was about 2 weeks old and I can remember that day like it was yesterday. I hate that they are growing up so fast. I feel like I am missing out on soooo much.
Well, that's about all for now....

Hello Readers and Friends...

I apologize that it again has been so long since I have written. I always mean to, but it gets so hard sometimes to get the chance.
Today I am writing you from the beautiful Savannah, Georgia, I am on a business trip and I have to say that I am probably staying at one of the nicest hotels I've ever been to. It is the Westin Resort. Look it up, it'll take your breath away. I, however, have been nearly at tears almost the entire time I've been here. As many of you know, I never leave my children with anyone. Thewy have never been away from me for more than a few hours. Well, I can't take them on business trips... No matter how much I try to explain that to the boss, he just continues to tell me no. LOL.... So here I am, all alone.
The flights were fun. I actually travel quite well when I'm alone. I was nervous that I would make some drastic mistake, but thus far I have been good. I even met some people that I will be hanging out with later tonight. They're all here for the same conference.
Well, I've got to get running, I'm gonna grab a late lunch. I finally got all my things put away and I just want to relax until the meeting tonight....
Talk to you all very soon!

By this time tomorrow...

By this time tomorrow, Gary will be gone. I will be single for three long months. Without the perks of being single, of course! ;) I am seriously trying to make this a laughing, joking matter. I just absolutely hate it when he goes away. And it will be happening more and more as time goes on. I am so worried about how the kids are going to handle it. And I'm worried about Gary. I know I'm going to be busy, and while yes, I will miss him, I will be fine. Sadly, I've gotten used to doing things alone. Truthfully, he doesn't do much while he's here. He is my shoulder though when things go wrong, and that's what I'll miss.... Because inevitably, something will go drastically wrong while he's gone. It always does.
To be honest, I think he's trying to make me angry with him these days. I don't know if he thinks that it makes things easier for me or what the deal is. It really doesn't make things easier, it makes me feel guilty for being angry when I know he won't be around and I only have a few hours left with him. And right now, it really is just hours. In less than 23 hours, I'll be dropping him off at the airport.
Well, that's all I have for now. Talk to you all later....

Wow!!!

They actually got the fence installed today. It looks fantastic! I love it and am so excited!
Work was bad today... Somebody clogged a toilet and flooded the building last night. That was not fun dealing with when I first got there this morning.
Well, I guess I should be going. There's not much else going on around here. I'm going to put the kids to bed soon.

Almost there...

I have been waiting for this week. I have been excited and dreading it for two completely different reasons.
Fourth quarter at work is over with after this week. Things are going to calm down and it will be absolutely wonderful. I'm not going to miss having one emergency after another and all of the cranky attitudes at all.
On the other hand, Gary leaves after this week is over. I have been trying to ignore it, to avoid it, to not think about it, but it's coming. I don't honestly know how I'll do by myself for three months. I know it's good practice for when he's gone for a year, but I still hate it nonetheless.
On a very happy note, the fence guys come today!!! They're putting the posts in the ground and I will have my fence by the end of the week.
Gosh, the kids are talking more and more every week. And they understand a lot more too... As I type this, Kyle is in his crib saying "Love you mama..." in hopes of me coming to rescue him. Yesterday, we got home and he screamed at me "I want DADDY!" to which I replied with "That's fine, if you want daddy, sit here and scream for him, see how long it will take for him to come get you out." and then he reached out for me and says "Mama???". I just can't get over how fast time flies by with them.
Well, I've got to run... There's a million things that I have to do this morning. Talk to you all later...

Age...

We were talking at work about age. Guessing people’s ages etc. Depressing subject for those of us whose ages were being guessed. It led to me wondering, just what happened to those days where people thinking you were older than you actually are being a good thing? I miss being 16 and people thinking that I was 21 and feeling good about it. Add five years now and I want to cry. I don’t know why, I guess it’s just something that comes with AGE.

 

Well, that’s all for now…

Yay for big projects!

Grrr... The assistant was a no show today. This makes six call-ins in the three weeks that she has worked there. I really wish that I could fire her, but I don't have that authority. Instead I am making my feelings known and continuing to give 200%. We can then decide in October what direction to go with her.
I have my very first FRG meeting tomorrow! I am so excited about it. I can't wait to get to know everyone and to really get to work on this all!
We get our fence in 6 days now! I'm already planning on how to fix my yard to make it as gorgeous as possible.
And, on a very sad note, Gary leaves in 10 days...
Well, I need to go... I have to find something to eat.

So I'm still not doing things as planned...

I have been so tired when I get home from work that I absolutely forget about getting on here. I plan to change that... I am going to start blogging on my breaks at work, so feel free to check in and see what I have to say then...

I have been really bummed out. Gary is leaving in such a short amount of time now... For three whole months. And that just starts out what the next two years of my life are going to be like. Leave, come back, leave again, come back, and leave me yet again. I don't really want to talk about it... I don't really know what to say. I get angry and take it out on him, even though it's not his fault, it's just easier to do that.

I'm going to go to the other, happier countdown that I have right now... 6 days until I get my fence! I sent my paperwork in to the homeowner's association yesterday to get approval. They said I should hear back by Friday at the latest. Yay!!!

I can't wait to get our family portraits back. Olan Mills said that since it's such a large order that it may be shipped directly to the house. I just want to have my family picture up on the wall and I want to start putting Christmas presents together, which, for those of you who don't already know, is pictures this year. I can't afford to something big for everyone, so we're going with something small for everyone rather than leave people out.

That being said, Christmas is on it's way... Email me with your addresses by Thanksgiving if you'd like a Christmas card!!!

Talk to you all later...

I know I haven't written...

I know I haven't written on here in a while, and believe me when I say that it's not because I don't care. It's just that life is a little crazy lately... Actually, a little doesn't even begin to describe it.
Micheal started beck to school. After weeks of crying and hiding and running away, I think he finally is enjoying himself. He is also starting to really do great with potty training as well! My goal is to have him completely potty trained during the day before Gary leaves, and completely out of pull-ups (at night) by the time Gary gets back.
Kyle is wonderful. He is really starting to talk! I wish that Micheal said half as much as that kid does... We are all really starting to have some conversations! Of course, he is having some things going on that are just flat out age related. He's a hitter... If he doesn't get his way, those arms start flailing. I'm hoping that soon enough this stage will be over.
Gary is Gary. He leaves in less than two weeks. I'm a little freaked out. I've never been alone for more than a few weeks and I'm really not looking forward to it.
I'm... hanging in there. Wishing life would just slow down for a second and give me a chance to catch up. I love my job. I love my kids. I love my husband. I love my dog... Who I need to post pictures of... I'll do that tonight, hopefully.
I'm going to be better... I'll be back on soon, I promise...